The Major Decision

Are we really happy and contented with our lives?

Honestly, how many people can proudly and truthfully claim that they are perfectly contented with their lives and satiated or even delighted with everything that they have and endured in their lives?

Do we strive and fight for what we want? Or do we settle?

I think there's a fine line between compromise, sacrifice and just plain settling.

Do we settle? Do we settle for second best or the next alternative instead of striving for what we really want in our life?

Unknowingly, most of us probably choose to settle. It's not narcissism nor are we putting ourselves on a pedestal by claiming that we deserve the best there is cause deep down we know what's the best we deserve. We know whether we deserve more out of our lives or not. We know whether we should settle or strive for more.

But sometimes, despite knowing that we deserve better, we choose to settle cause it's an easier way out. It's so much easier to just settle for what we have, unsatisfied as we are, than to fight and make that change in our lives.

We don't want to change because we're afraid of the consequences and we secretly hope that the change comes to us without us making any ammendments whatsoever. We feed off hope, thinking that maybe our neighbours will stop littering rubbish around our compounds without us telling them so, that a certain colleague of ours will stop bossing or picking on us without us taking a stand against them, that our parents will realise the hurt they're putting us through by fighting and bad-mouthing each other without us voicing it out, in risks of damaging relationships.

Sometimes, things just aren't as they seem to be. People aren't always who you think they are. People change and some show their true colours later on. We feel the weight of it when we realise it's causing a distance, driving us further apart from them without them realising it. Maybe it's the change or maybe you've never really opened your eyes and realised that's how they truly are.

But we make excuses for their changes or derive possibilities or reasons why they are the way they are when we realise that their actually different. We tell ourselves that it'll revert back to normal or that it'll be different cause we're afraid of confrontation. We're afraid to make that change, afraid to stand up and fight for it. We settle cause we're afraid that if we stand up, if we carry out that confrontation, things will be worse off or in some cases, things may never be as it was before that dreaded change.

We're afraid of the consequences amounting from the changes we make. We're afraid that just that mere confrontation, comprising of a few words or sentences, will cause more damage than we would have ever imagined. Most of all, we're afraid that those damages may be irreversible.

We vow to ourselves that someday, soon, we'll make those changes, confront those things hurting us but we somehow never find the courage to. It takes so much courage and the strength required if said damages were to be severe and irreverisble is unimaginable. We need them not only to deal and adapt to it but to pull ourselves up from the mess and to move on.

Having said all that, it's ironic how such a simple thing requires much contemplation and courage to execute.

So, do we make a change or settle?




Listening to : Ride by Carey Brothers

Breath in

Just to fill you guys in, I’ve been busy with my university applications, and going back and forth with deciding which University I would transfer to. In the end I decided with SUNY, University at Buffalo, New York. I’ll be leaving in about 2 months time, which is pretty soon if you think about it. Having mixed feelings with the whole having to leave home behind situation. Nevertheless, I am excited about that new chapter in my life. So so many things that I feel like blogging about, but I'll leave that for another post.

To start, here are a few (super outdated) pictures that I’ve just uploaded from my camera.

New friend Elishia and I. Elishia was down for the weekend from Singapore so I played tour guide (sort off) and took her around. We caught the movie Whiteout yesterday which was kindda weak in my opinion, nonetheless we had fun screaming at all the gorry scenes.

Picture taken in my house before we left for dinner on my birthday. My camera's flash is kindda wonky so I hardly took any photos of that night. Yien looks totally pretty here right

May Ee and I taken during Siang's birthday which was like forever ago. I miss this girl so so much. Maybe I'll fly to London on the way to New York? or you can totally come visit me in New York during Spring break. Do you guys like have Spring break in London, I don't know.

Taken during one of our GNO. I miss times like this where we have our little movie night/ cocktail hour/shopping escapades. We always have fun no matter what we do. Sucks that it might be a year's time till we actually get to this again.

It's late now. I better continue finishng up my Finance report. Hopefully I'll update real soon. Ciao!

listening to: Regina Spektor- Hero

The comeback

Hii thereee!

Wait!

Our blog is not dead . .

yet! :D

Hehe, updates soon -I hope! Till then :)




Love loads! :)






*hehe just some pics to liven up this nearly dead blog! :P*

Adjust if you must

Had my hair dyed back to black today. Not loving it.I look like a walking goth parade. Gonna give it two weeks to see whether the colour will fade to a less darker black, or whether the colour will grow on me. How??? Should I dye it to a lighter colour later on? Term holidays just started so hopefully I'll be updating more. Just short random updates. I'll try. hehe.

Gems that mean the most to us

There's been much complaints going on.

The boyfriend complains the blog lacks activity. I complain that Cheryl doesn't give the blog much activity either. (Woman, if you're reading this, it's a hint and you're on holiday) Haha, maybe not that many complaints la but yeah.

The holidays are over for me and I'm back at uni. Haha, while the holidays are just starting for Cheryl as she just had her final paper.

I miss the holidays a lot.

(To the boyfriend,)

And I thank you soo much for coming back. It meant so much to me and you've given me soo many happy days and have made my holidays really meaningful. Regardless of the little tiffs and whatnot, I'm still ever so grateful and thankful.

Thank you. <3

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On a completely random note, I did some diy stuff previously. Most would assume that I did it during my holidays but ironically enough, I did it while studying for my final papers last semester! :P

I diy-ed my plain black plastic hairband!

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I loike it, it kinda reminds me of the MAC Stylistics Compact :D

It's not perfect and has loads of imperfections when you look at it up close but when you wear it, looks fine. :)

My allocations are still not finalised.

I hate my timetable and uni. :(

Please please come quick, summer holidays.

I can't wait.

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